My biggest insecurity is my skin. There will be entire days and even weeks where I just want to stay at home and avoid any social interaction because of it. It also sucks photographing so well because there’s an image I have to keep up with on social media that isn’t exactly the same in real life.
Everything I put out on social media is 100% me but I just know my angles and lighting and filters. It gives me so much social anxiety meeting someone for the first time in real life after following each other on whatever networking site.
My skin makes me feel inadequate.
I blame it for my inability to socialize & keep people around.
“Birds of a feather flock together.”
For awhile, my personality will attract people and keep them around—
but I don’t know.
I hate being the ugly friend.
Uh I guess it’s just one of those nights.
Fuck fuck fuck. It’s been awhile since I’ve felt so down because of something as stupid as my skin condition.
Halloween Horror Nights - Sunday Oct. 26
Escape - Friday Oct. 31
NorCal Trip - Nov. 13 - 16 (?)
A lot of exciting shit is happening and I’m going to be meeting a lot of people and ah my wallet is already crying. This has been a more interesting/social semester in comparison to the last two semesters I spent at a CC.
"You only call me when you’re high."
He only hits me up when he needs something.
Bye I can’t have you here.
One last thing, tomorrow is October 1 and at the end of the month I want to feel really good about my body. I’m doing a cleanse type thing and just work out and eat healthier and all of that stuff. Working for dat winter bodyyyyyyyyy lol